this messed up week :/

it's been a really messed up week, days of torture, mountain of homework and plenty of stupid friendship problems! uhh i really really want to kill myself but of course i wont do it. whatever... got rid of that stupid human being and now, the new problem comes... why is this happening on me???????!!!!!!!!!! i just wish to be a normal yet happy person and continue my study with full attention because for your information, 'FORM 4 IS NOT A HONEYMOON YEAR'. i just hope to finish all my homeworks, focus on my study and get a good result. but it seems difficult BECAUSE our teachers in school are sucks! really sucks! i don't even understand what Tengku taught and for sure, my add maths exercise book is totally empty! yay! hey i'm not proud of it at all -.- dance audition on friday, which is my first time of dancing, never try that before, i hope i can do it better than her :/ school replacement on saturday,which i'm planning to skip school on that day heh B) but it's still in my consideration, after all, it's not a good thing to do :P by the way, 'Julie And Julia' was really nice to be watched (Y) it was about a girl sharing her cooking experiences on her blog. she gave herself a time limit which was one year time to cook all the food in her beloved cooking recipe which was written by her worship, Julia. after a long time of sharing her experiences on the blog, she got famous and sadly i missed the ending part :( well, i was going to press 'enter' and start a new sentence with 'let's talk about some happy things' but then i realized that i don't have any thing to be happy with recently. am i unhappy? things just don't turn into the way it should be, and everything just gone wrong! i want everything to be back to normal, please don't stress me out! i don't hate her, it's just that i can't stand with those bad habits she has. i'm sorry that i've been a bad person this recently because what i was thinking is i can't be pushed down by you. i just feel like, i'm me, just me, no one can control me. of course, who wants to be controlled? okay, that's all, actually i was going to write more and there were lots of things in my head that i wanted to write it out but now i totally forgot all of it and even if i remember it, i think i'll choose to stop here. that's all for this week, bye~