I guess I was just so afraid of what I might lose, of what I might be missing out on, that I forgot to enjoy what I have.

26.2.13

god knows...

Well I'm glad people are with me, at least I'm not the only one who dislikes you. Oh come on, god knows I've been through hard days recently. I really don't know how to describe you, I really don't. Everyday you keep on telling me your latest information of your social life, I don't know why, maybe I'm too kind, I just listen to you and make no comments, know what, I should fight back. God knows your're trying to tell me that you live better than me, but who cares, it will only make yourself a worse person. You wanna tell me how those guys sweet talk to you and stuffs, but actually, do you think I care? What's the purpose of you doing this? I admit that I'm a jealousy person, I'll be very jealous when I see someone is better than me, that's why I've never had a best friend. I'll get tired of him/her when I found some of his/her bad attitudes. But seriously, I'm not jealous of you anymore, it's just a waste of my time uh-.-

This year is a really really bad year for me. I can feel it. Everything is going to the opposite way. I feel very tired, can I burst out my tears? No, I can't, I ask myself to be strong. I want to be the original Wong Angie, I won't be infected by anyone!!!! I'm a self-abased person, I don't have any talent, I have nothing good from my head to toe, the only thing I'm proud of is my inner center. But no one sees it, no one. No one understands me, everyone judges me based on my appearance, god knows I ain't not pretty at all!!! So they think that I have an arrogant characteristic. I don't have lovely looking, my nose is exactly same like a pig nose, my eyes aren't big and only one of it has double eye lid! I don't have a nice body shape, I'm short, I'm tan, my hairstyle is terrible!!! I have some private problems, my leg muscles are getting bigger which caused me having a short height and maybe I can't even grow taller anymore. My brain doesn't function well, I'm not good in languages and the only language I could handle is Chinese but I'm afraid that I can't do it anymore. I'm not good in sports, I can only be a bench-warmer in the coming basketball competition I'm afraid, I can barely finish 3 kilometers marathon only. I do not score high in all of my subjects and people think that I don't have good attitude yet they think 'McDonald' is better than me which makes me wanna scream WTH!!!!

Friendship problems, family problems and my own problems keep running around my head. I just wish that I could do like what he said, just punch them! Just punch whoever I dislike! Punch that bitch, punch McDonald, punch everyone who makes me feel like I'm underestimated!!!


-------------------------Erasing every bad thing---------------------------
Traveling is fun!!!!

'Coyote Ugly', a nice movie I've watched lately. It is about the process of a girl chasing her dream starting from being a part time coyote to a singer.

'Wanted' by Hunter Hayes is nice to listen to!!!!

Novel 'Switched','Torn' and 'Ascend' are good to be read!!! by Amanda Hocking

Next hunt---> Novel 'I've got your number' by Sophie Kinsella

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