Sweet 16?

-Save Rock And Roll by Fall Out Boy ft Elton John-

I feel like crying now, everything that I planned has gone wrong. I thought my life would be better in July, but it seems like it only proves to me that 2013 is totally not my year, again.

Early in July, I went to MBS IU with my friends. Met lots of new friends there, had a gathering with long time no see primary school friends, took lots of photos with some famous people. I really thought July will be good to me since it's my month, but I think I'm still very naive to think like that.

-Wild Ones by Flo Rida ft Sia-

I met Sheikh, I met a hot guy named Jack, I got to go to Jason Chen's concert (but the plan is off now, I'm sorry Kelly, I lied to you, I have no plans on that day :/), I met Christian and my old friend Rebecca. I went to interact club interview for next year's BOD, I thought I can get a high post. But...

-These Days by Foo Fighters-

Yesterday, my friends threw me a surprise birthday party, which they already planned for a month. I was really really surprised, happy at the same time. I can't believed that my mom was in that plan too even thought she only took a small part of it. But, right after that, I realized that my mom became different. I didn't know and I don't know what was she thinking, maybe she was disappointing because I just had fun with my friends and totally forgot about her? Maybe she wasn't in a good mood? Other than that, I got my dad into trouble too. My family don't have a good relationship with my grandma. So, something went wrong and it was about me, I told my mom something and now she's blaming my dad while my dad doesn't even know what happened.

-Houdini by Foster The People-

Today, 26th of July, few more hours to become 16, I deeply feel sorry for my friends, for what they've done for me, I just hurt them. Especially the one I love. She's my good friend, I love her, but I can't believe that she doesn't understand why I choose to do that. I went for installation for interact club 2014 BOD, I got a low post, a post that considered as important but can't get high co-co marks. I told everyone that all I fight for is my future. I want to get full scholarship so that I get to further my studies to become a pilot. I worked everything just for my dream! But I can't believe that she loves the club more than me, she doesn't understand why I did that!

-Come To Me by Jesse McCartney-

The post I got is Assistant IU Director. 'IU' means International Understanding, we'll have this event every year to introduce people about our themes! Themes about countries, cultures, awareness etc. It's the most important event of the club, but I really don't give a shyt about the post nor the event, I do like to organize event but I like co-co marks more. Plus, I'm just an assistant, I'm under her, the one that I can't corporate with. Who knows what will the following IU turn out to be like? I'm now thinking to switch my club, to a club which I can get a higher post, maybe the highest. But if I did that, I will lost everyone's trust, no one will ever trust me again. I've already promised my senior during the interview that I won't quit interact club and she told me that I promised to her before too. Well, now I'm considering about that. What should I do? Fck.

-Body Language by Jesse McCartney-

Recently I like Fall Out Boy, their songs are awesome yet amazing! I can't believe that I actually know Patrick Stump before I know Fall Out Boy. I'm totally addicted to his voice! Wow, I just got my first FB birthday wish, from Eugene, a handsome boy who has migrated to New Zealand. Kinda happy of it, at least it lights me up a little bit. Alright, that's all for this time, totally in a sad mood now, gotta go to bed earlier to consider about the stupid club thingy sigh. Tata! #ps. I love minions!

pps. I guess I should get off from my gadgets and stop thinking about that stupid thingy, I just wanna enjoy my once in a lifetime sweet 16 even though it's not that good! Tata! Happy Birthday to myself :)