Insane

They have gone too far. Almost insane. I'm trying my best to hold myself from being rebellious for showing that I'm done with all of them. But maybe it's time for me not to be a selfish person, for this time, at least. Since not everyone is going to obey me for forever.

My mom keeps screaming at me, which should be normal, but this time she screams on almost EVERYTHING that I've done! I'm not going to be a perfect person, I won't even be one too. From the day that I was born, I was destined to be very 'active', lazy and hate house chore. I really don't understand why is she so cared about what had happened to her (all of us actually). She even tells everyone that she meets and called her about every single story that happened recently. I started to think that maybe she thinks that she was reborn after the moment my father passed away because she has been talking like, 'You've been acting so rude since your father passed away'. I mean like, I do know that misbehaving is not a good thing, but all along we're always behaving like this, it's not like we started to do it right after my father passed away. It seems like she considers that her life starts with that moment.

I would like to skip my sister's part because honestly, she's the only one who is correcting her mistakes. She has been rude, like what I mentioned on the last post, but I can see that she's correcting it after she knew my mother's problem.

About my brother, he would be the worst person on Earth I guess. He wants everything to be perfect in his life. He couldn't stand a single thing that gone wrong! Maybe his Virgo characteristics are acting on him, but despite how much we had advised him, he just won't listen a single word. He thinks that he's still very small to go upstairs and switch on the air-conditioner or doing heavy house chore when he's already 14! Does he want to know what my sister and I were doing when we were 14? I'm totally pissed!

Now, my neighbor, she has been a very good companion to me. But I realized that she's so pessimistic and emotional. Emotional is the worst attitude to me because I really can't tolerate people who are acting so crazy depending on their mood! And I found that she likes to crap about something that is wrong! For example, I comforted her on her English result but guess what she said. 'You can't feel the same way because you're not on my shoes.' Oh please! Please be grateful that people still bothered your feelings and tried to comfort you, especially me, I'm so not that kind of person who will comfort people. Another example, which happened this afternoon, even she already said sorry to me, but I'm still feeling sad because I never did a single wrong thing! She was sleepy this afternoon, so she slept and got frightened because of my classmates cheers on the coming trip to a museum. Of course, for a normal human, she got a bit grumpy and when she passed a paper that was used for us to write our names and details for the trip, I spotted the corner was wet and she was the one who did it. So, I said 'Kaya, see, it's wet already.' 'Yes, I know! you thought I don't know meh?!' She screamed at me! What for?! So we screamed at each other for very long. At last, after a few hours, she apologized to me on that. There's actually some story behind it but I'm very lazy to tell. Conclusion is, she has been kinda crazy lately too.

Honestly, I really don't like people behaving like this around me, although I'm not that good too, but this time I think I'm the right one, because I'm trying to be tolerant.