She always tells me that I'm smart, even smarter than my sister. But why can't I choose my own future? It seems like she wants me to give up all of my dreams. She wants me to stop my further education just because we don't have enough money to support both of my sister and I. Why must I be the one who give up my own dream? I really love to be a pilot. I don't care to take the long way or to stop study for one year hoping that I can earn some money for myself. But they still treat me like a kid, they thought that I'm still playing around. I'm absolutely sure that I want to be a pilot, even if I might end up to be a CPL license holder who doesn't have a job.
Wouldn't they just think of some way to let me to chase my own dream? Yea, I know she wouldn't. But why can't she supports me mentally? I'm really pissed with the fact that I have to give up my dream just because I'm the second daughter. After all, all I want is their supports and their helps, not their money to pay for my study.
I started to think that it might be Him who wants me to give up because my biggest hope, MAS Flying Academy is facing bankruptcy due to the MH370 issue. I guess all I can do now are to get a really really good result and pray to God that I will have the chance to step into the cockpit with the log book.
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